rants&musings
Thursday, April 27, 2006
i don't know what i'm doing, i don't know what to say anymore..
darryl was chasing the sun at 21:15.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
im in a buying mood.
i went to royal sporting house at j8 just now for a walk. saw a nike football90 tee that is quite nice. 37 bucks and now im tempted to buy it.
then i went over to seiyu and looked at FX creations wallets. 26 bucks for a wallet which suits my needs. not bad. quite cheap too.
gosh. i want to buy these stuff. don't know what's come into me.
darryl was chasing the sun at 21:58.
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
i relish the thought of that day in november, when eveything will be over, when what i want can finally be attained. i've made it through a year already, i'm sure another 7 more months shouldn't be much of a problem..
darryl was chasing the sun at 18:08.
i need to rant. RAHHHH.
i feel inferior. gosh.
why are some people so successful in like everything they do?
why do some people seem oh-so-popular?
am i cut out for studies in a jc, that should be the most pressing question.
do i even deserve to be here?
how come every decision i make is a screwed up one that leaves me in misery?
in a nutshell,
WHY IS THERE SO MUCH POLITICS everywhere? can't we all just be at peace with one another?
it sure doesn't help that we did politics during gp lesson today..so many unanswered questions, so many doubts, so many worries. so much frustration.
i'm super emo now. -.-
darryl was chasing the sun at 17:33.
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
i really love this song. its mind trick by jamie cullum (: really really good stuff
Jamie Cullum - Mind TrickI missed the opportunity
to get you babe to stay with me.
Never thought, I'd regret the excuses that I've made
like a song, it will fade
If there's music in the night,
And it's really, really right,
It's the only thing I need.
it intoxicates your mind
All your troubles left behind
So come on and take my lead.
it's not just me who feels it
music plays a mind trick
watch me forget about missing you
so i put my feelings out to dry
love, one day again,
i'll have to try.
falling out, making up
it seems such a silly game
why do i never gain?
If there's music in the night,
And it's really, really right,
It's the only thing I need.
it intoxicates your mind
All your troubles left behind
So come on and take my lead.
it's not just me who feels it
music plays a mind trick
watch me forget about missing you
na na na's
If there's music in the night,
And it's really, really right,
It's the only thing I need.
it intoxicates your mind
All your troubles left behind
So come on and take my lead.
it's not just me who feels it
music plays a mind trick
watch me forget about missing you
darryl was chasing the sun at 19:58.
rahh i'm soo tired. gosh. im not in the mood to do anything at all. if that's the case how am i going to pull up my shit results. oh which reminds me. need to get a math tutor asap. yups. better get to my books soon.
stepping into school makes my mood change a total 180degrees into depression..
darryl was chasing the sun at 19:24.
Sunday, April 09, 2006
and im back from 3 days of camp. haha. well, it was fun yet tiring at the same time. my previous blog entry was actually directed at a game i was supposed to plan. (which in the end did not turn out too well. haha) all's been said and done, its over already, and i really think we did a great job. looking forward to the june camp in a way. (:
LIFECONCERT on thurs really really rocked. it has special significance for me cos last year on this very day and very occasion i answered the altar call. and thus began my walk as a child of God (: i dare say that through this year i've grown quite substantially. (THOUGH there is sooo much more i can work on. yups..) really hope to see more people i know take that leap of faith and embark on that walk. (:
HAHA and oh did i mention i lost my voice? lol.
darryl was chasing the sun at 22:18.
Thursday, April 06, 2006
i never knew planning a seemingly-simple game for camp could be such a nerve wracking business..
darryl was chasing the sun at 23:40.
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
over these few months i've come to realise that even if i do something, nothing comes out of it. well, either nothing at all, or nothing good. yup. it doesnt make a difference at all. perhaps its because i haven't been trying hard enough.
but i'm so exhausted from everything i find it hard to do anything anymore..
darryl was chasing the sun at 22:41.
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
its oh-so-nice when people bitch about you. shows you how "endeared" you are to that person's eyes. no, not that i have anything against people bitching about me. i know there is bound to be bitching here and there. BUT NOT WHEN THAT PERSON IS BLOODY IN FRONT OF YOU (though not right in front). and certainly not so loudly that the person himself can hear. that is really being extremely helpful.
if you have a problem with me. bring it up STRAIGHT to me. no point hiding it and gossiping and bitching about it. seriously. what use will it bring if you bitch and bitch about people. i used to bitch about people, now i don't because its pointless and all it does is hurt people. i just don't know what to do now. really. and i don't think i even have the energy to bother.
i have nothing much to say, and what i say will make no difference anyway. i've already lost all my emotions. i don't feel anything any longer. i don't care for anything any longer. things i used to enjoy doing have become mundane and frustrating. though i might cringe when i see something disgusting or start to tear on reading something sad, perhaps those are all just an act. i'm just an empty, emotionless shell right now.
7 more months and it'll be all over. FINALLY. i've already made it past 12 months, another 7 shouldn't be that hard.
on a side note, new blog layout. yes. after like at least 9 months.
darryl was chasing the sun at 16:49.
Saturday, April 01, 2006
ARGH. just bloody screw everything. don't wanna do anything anymore. RAHHH
darryl was chasing the sun at 00:28.
i don't want to bother with anything anymore. im just exhausted out. its one of those moments where you don't feel like doing anything AT ALL. and don't feel like caring already. yupp. i'm getting this close to giving up alrd, really.
darryl was chasing the sun at 00:08.