rants&musings
Thursday, September 21, 2006
i really feel all that studying i put in has all gone to waste, seriously. ok, i must admit i haven't put in my best effort. but i did try. i did give something to it. and what i've seen so far really shows me how much i've put in to studies, i guess. it's always the same scenario every exam. it is so saddening. but the best part is that i daresay i put in much more effort this time round compared to previously.
i'm frustrated about and really wonder why some people end up all depressed and stuff when they get much better results. i mean come on. there are more things in life to get depressed over. you may say "studies are of utmost importance now" and that i do not deny. but is it worth getting all sad and bitchy and stuff when you got average marks for a exam. if one gets depressed over a nasty breakup i can understand, but over the chase for academic excellence? gosh.
whatever happened to our thinking man. getting depressed over a slip of paper? getting depressed over crap results? true, i do admit i'm dismayed, but not to the extent of depression! this is all a unfortunate byproduct of our local education system, sadly. have we all become mindless robots only interested in the paper chase? i wonder and i fear.
42 more days left. 6 weeks to turn my life around. this may be my last post in a long while.
darryl was chasing the sun at 16:25.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
hoho. i did this enegram test thing. actually it is quite true i feel. some are just plain "huh?". haha. here's for you guys to see.
you chose CX - your Enneagram type is TWO.
"I must help others"
Helpers are warm, concerned, nurturing, and sensitive to other people's needs.
How to Get Along with Me (this whole portion is so true. gosh. YES YES. no kidding.)
Tell me that you appreciate me. Be specific.
Share fun times with me.
Take an interest in my problems, though I will probably try to focus on yours.
Let me know that I am important and special to you.
Be gentle if you decide to criticize me.
In Intimate Relationships (not that i'm in one, so i can't judge. haha)
Reassure me that I am interesting to you.
Reassure me often that you love me.
Tell me I'm attractive and that you're glad to be seen with me.
What I Like About Being a Two
being able to relate easily to people and to make friendsknowing what people need and being able to make their lives better
being generous, caring, and warmbeing sensitive to and perceptive about others' feelings
being enthusiastic and fun-loving, and having a good sense of humorWhat's Hard About Being a Two
not being able to say no
having low self-esteemfeeling drained from overdoing for others
not doing things I really like to do for myself for fear of being selfish
criticizing myself for not feeling as loving as I think I should
being upset that others don't tune in to me as much as I tume in to themworking so hard to be tactful and considerate that I suppress my real feelings
Twos as Children Often
are very sensitive to disapproval and criticismtry hard to please their parents by being helpful and understanding
are outwardly compliantare popular or try to be popular with other children
act coy, precocious, or dramatic in order to get attention
are clowns and jokers (the more extroverted Twos), or quiet and shy (the more introverted Twos)
Twos as Parents (can't tell for now! haha)
are good listeners, love their children unconditionally, and are warm and encouraging (or suffer guilt if they aren't)
are often playful with their children
wonder: "Am I doing it right?" "Am I giving enough?" "Have I caused irreparable damage?"
can become fiercely protective
haha, take it too at
http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=6711512663497470889
darryl was chasing the sun at 19:03.
Monday, September 11, 2006
at the rate i'm blogging, it really is one post a month. haha. and it's not like i've cut down my internet time drastically. i mean, i'm still online at least 1h a day. i think i'm addicted to msn and itunes. now that's a real scary thought. considering i can just have my msn and itunes open and sitting there for hours on end. hmm. i must cut this habit. but then again next year i'd probably have more free time on my hands. so yeah. but for the next 2 months at least.
the thought that everything will be over in 2 months and 6 days scares me. and i'm in the midst of prelims. and you'll ask "what am i doing blogging?" simply because i feel bored and have nothing to do? haha. ok. not exactly nothing. i have physics to study for. and math and econs. then it'll be round 1 over with round 2 looming in hmm, 40-odd days from now. DAMN SCARY SHIT. though i really can't wait for it to be over *liberation!* haha yup. could do with a good 2 month break and oh of course, DRIVING LESSONS :D
been using the ipod for a month already, not much issues with it other than battery life. perhaps cos i blast my music real loud. and it has acquired some scratches on the bottom :S will affect the resale value if i decide to get a touchscreen ipod next year. yup.
ok, enough of the ipod, now lets talk about prelims. whoever came out with the idea of having half the prelims before holidays, and the other half after holidays, ought to be shot. im sure there are good intentions (the week in between is meant for studying, no doubt, and to give us all a breather, i guess). but sadly by doing so our momentum is cut (unless you're a super mugger who mugs 24/7 without having to ever stop, or "break" does not exist in your vocab). its like. comeon its the holidays. who studies during the holidays? (hmm, perhaps its people like us who lead such miserable lives that study during the hols.) and its not easy to gain the momentum back! that's why i've slacked away HALF the hols. bad bad bad. ughhh.
chem 3 today. nothing good or bad to say. don't wish to comment lest it demoralizes me. haha. (as if im demoralized that easily, LOL)
darryl was chasing the sun at 12:35.